“Every Pregnancy Was a Happy Pregnancy” — Carmen Grover on Miscarriage, TFMR & Finding Joy Again
In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, I sit down with Canadian mom and pediatric nurse, Carmen Grover, to talk about her eleven pregnancies — including early miscarriages, TFMR, the second-trimester loss of her daughter Kaia Bell, and the long, complicated road of pregnancy after loss. Carmen speaks so beautifully about the memories that tether her to each of her babies, the moments that nearly broke her, and the ones that helped her begin to heal. This is a tender story of grief, motherhood after loss, and finding hope again.
We talk about:
Carmen’s first pregnancy and the early losses that followed
The heartbreaking diagnosis that led to the TFMR of her daughter Kaia Bell
How writing became a way to hold, honor, and remember each of her babies
The complexity of pregnancy after loss and learning to celebrate again
Parenting living children while grieving the ones you never got to raise
How partners grieve differently and the strain loss can place on a relationship
What it looks like to honoUr all of her babies as her family grows
The unexpected ways her children continue to teach her about love and grief
Finding healing through community, ritual, and small everyday moments
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Carmen:
Carmen Grover is a Canadian mom to eleven babies — four in her arms and seven she carries in her heart. A pediatric nurse and gifted storyteller, she speaks openly about miscarriage, second-trimester loss, TFMR, and the complex emotions of pregnancy after loss. Carmen’s writing and quiet rituals have become the way she continues to honor each of her babies. She shares her journey in hopes that no parent walking through grief ever feels alone.
Instagram: @adiarytoourbabies
A Diary to my Babies: Find Carmen's book here
