“Learning to Trust My Body Again” — Pregnancy After Loss and Healing with Ummul Patrawala
Ummul Patrawala shares her journey through multiple pregnancy losses, including the stillbirth of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks, and how those experiences shaped her understanding of the deep connection between trauma and the body. In this episode, we explore motherhood after loss, the physical and emotional imprint of grief, and how her rainbow baby helped her begin to rebuild trust, connection, and safety within herself. This conversation is a powerful reflection on healing after stillbirth, pregnancy after loss, and the evolving identity of motherhood in the after.
We talk about:
The story and meaning behind Ummul’s name and identity as “the mother of all mothers”
Navigating stillbirth and the loss of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks
The physical impact of grief, including autoimmune conditions, IBS, and chronic pain
PTSD and the body’s response to unresolved trauma after pregnancy loss
Rebuilding trust in your body during pregnancy after loss
The emotional complexity of welcoming a rainbow baby
Motherhood after loss and holding both grief and hope at the same time
Supporting women through the invisible impact of trauma on the body
Learning to listen to your body instead of disconnecting from it
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Ummul:
Ummul Patrawala is a mother to three boys and five angel babies, living in Mississauga, Ontario. After experiencing profound pregnancy loss, including the stillbirth of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks, her path shifted in a deeply personal way. Today, she is a psychotherapist who supports women navigating the physical and emotional effects of trauma — including chronic pain, autoimmune conditions, and pelvic health challenges. Her work is rooted in helping women reconnect with their bodies, rebuild trust, and feel seen in experiences that are often overlooked.
Instagram: @ThriveHolisticCoaching
Website: www.hopetherapyjourney.com
