We Chose Love — Fernanda on Saying Goodbye, Grief, and Motherhood After Loss
Fernanda shares the story of her daughter, who was diagnosed during pregnancy with metatropic dysplasia — a rare and life-limiting condition. After weeks of uncertainty, testing, and slowly losing hope, Fernanda and her partner were faced with an impossible decision: to continue the pregnancy knowing their daughter would suffer, or to say goodbye.
In this episode, Fernanda speaks openly about choosing to say goodbye to her daughter at 27 weeks, the three days she had to hold her close and prepare her heart, and the sacred, life-changing moment of meeting her after birth.
She also takes us into the depths of grief — what it truly looks like to live in the aftermath of loss — and the hard, intentional work it took to survive. Finally, she shares about her rainbow baby, Theo, and how becoming his mother helped bring her back to life while still carrying love for her first baby.
We talk about:
Receiving a rare diagnosis during pregnancy
The emotional weight of waiting for answers
Making an impossible, compassionate decision
Carrying her daughter and preparing to say goodbye
The sacred experience of birth after loss
What grief actually looks like in the months after loss
The role of therapy, routine, and medication in healing
The deep desire to become a mother again
Pregnancy after loss and the fear that comes with it
Meeting her rainbow baby and learning to feel again
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and love are never separate — and that even in the darkest moments, there can still be connection, meaning, and a path forward.
Get to Know FERNANDA:
Fernanda is a creative, graphic designer, and community leader based in Berlin, Germany, where she lives with her husband and their son. Originally from Santiago, Chile, she has built a life rooted in creativity, movement, and connection. Her journey through pregnancy loss and motherhood after loss has deeply shaped the way she sees the world — and the way she shows up in it today.
Instagram: @mandarina.caiman
